I know its outpatient surgery, I understand the procedure, I trust the surgeon and staff at the surgery center. Still it’s my wife going under the knife and I feel anxious and a bit fearful. It’s a simple procedure to repair a tendon in her left wrist, her right wrist had a similar procedure about 18 months ago by the same surgeon, and he also performed both her carpel tunnel surgeries. As much as the logical part of my brain screams at the emotional part of me to ‘stay calm’ I can’t help but feel a bit scared. The anxiety, fear and apprehension is the same as it’s been through her last surgeries and procedures. I’m not alarmed, it’s not a voice telling me to have her avoid the surgery. The little voice in my head has saved me many a time, but it’s not warning me about her surgery today.
I’ll be waking her in a few minutes se we can head to the surgery center, I drive, she rides, I worry, I stress. She controls her emotions better than I do, so it’s hard to read her, to know if she has fear or anxiety. Still her temper has been a little more pronounced the last week so I know she’s thinking about it.
She’s awake now, said she would need 10 minutes to get ready. I know that ten of her minutes will be closer to 25 on the clock. I’m told all women are this way; I can’t speak to the truth of this beyond saying its well within my experience.
I like to arrive early, she is always late. Perhaps thirty plus years in the corporate world has made me more aware of the clock, perhaps I’m just anal about being on time.
So, in a few minutes we’ll be leaving, upon our return I’ll update today’s entry with her status. if you get a moment wish her luck.
Wow – somehow I missed updating this, the wife is fine, the surgery went well.
